Ok, so this week has been a bit of a write off and a challenge to boot.
One case of chicken pox….check.
One broken fridge…check.
(I really should have taken the photo before I cleaned it out for the full effect and trust me, it was dirty!! Probably why it broke so it forced me to finally give it a thorough clean! Ugh!)
The feeling of utter chaos and not being able to keep up with anything….check.What do you get when you combine sick kids (coupled with the fact that you are pretty much housebound!), breakdowns in the things you most rely on every day (did I also mention our car’s tires were basically bald when James took it in for service? Feel a bit freaked that any minute the tires could have exploded and it’s not an old car!!), and a change in the weather from that of sunny, warm, and tropical (think windows and doors wide open most of the day with sunlight streaming through), to the wintery NZ weather of rain, darkness, rain, cloudy…..did I mention rain??
First it’s all sunshine and rainbows and you feel like you’ve got it all under control as you find things to keep little ones occupied.
A bit of cat and mouse…..
Followed by Lily and her newfound jumping antics choreographed with some ribbon dancing led by big sister (who of course has the chicken pox and will remain anonymous for this post with due respect!).
Then of course there is sticker fun which you know is going to end up in tears at some point!
Oh, the things that big sisters do to little sisters!! I guess Liv wanted Lily to get a taste of what it feels like to be “spotty”!
It was one of those weeks where things don’t go to plan, and perhaps I didn’t take those changes in my stride as well as I could have. I had just gotten used to my lovely walks with the girls to school in the mornings and was missing them as we were now housebound. Then of course things started breaking down and while it’s not really a huge deal on the grand scheme of life, I just didn’t seem to have the mental energy to cope very well with these changes in our house this week. I DON’T DO cabin fever very well AT ALL!
I really felt it, let me tell you! Today the Motherboard exploded. I lost it….shouting and criticizing, harboring resentment, and played the Martyr role worthy of Academy Award proportions! I felt bad, and although I know it was wrong I also felt happy to know that I can admit this freely and that it does not define who I am. I am human, I make mistakes, and I will continue to do so in the years to come. I felt boxed in and out of control and this is how I reacted. But it feels good to admit it and move on.
I have great ideas and topics that are very inspiring, positive, and moving but I just wasn’t in the groove to weave words into a web of magic that would hopefully blow you away. Instead, I’m afraid all I have is a circuit board that’s in need of a recharge. My operating system is down and in need of a revamp. I have neglected recharging my batteries for a while now and it’s come to a point where it’s something that’s begging for my attention. I had a chat with my sister tonight and she made a valid point. What is one of the most valid lessons I can teach my daughters?
When things get hectic….STOP……..BREATHE……and take the time for you. Because if you are out of sync….everyone around you will feel it too.
I have been slowly finding other things that fuel me and allow me to decompress. I am loving the process of recycling things already found in my home to create new and exciting things that I am proud to display or give as gifts! Recently I purchased a great deal on some canvasses to have printed on one of the many websites offering daily deals. There was a great deal for 12×18 inch canvasses for $33 each (they normally retail around $80 each!) so I bought a few and am really impressed with the print quality! I wanted close up shots that really caught the girls “in the moment” to showcase who they really are and I’m really happy with the choice I made.
I have recently become addicted to a website called Pinterest which is basically a virtual pinboard which you can categorize into all the areas that inspire you. It’s a great tool for bloggers but I can see anyone who loves a bit of eye candy loving it straight away! You need to have an invite to get started (I waited a week before I could use it!) so if you would like to join just flick me a message with your email and I’ll send you an invite!
While I was browsing ideas for the home, I noticed a friend had pinned an idea of 3 canvasses together with an initial. I had already hung my canvasses of the girls but really loved the idea of the initial. I bought a black canvas for $6 and originally thought I’d use buttons to glue on in the shape of an H but the more I thought about it, I was sure I must have something at home that I could recycle for my initial instead. I happened to notice some pearls in the craft shop and immediately remembered that I had a long strand of really cheap costume strand pearls and voila….my idea took shape!!
Not only was this incredibly economical to put together, it took me all of about 1/2 hour to complete with a bit of craft glue. I am not one for fine details so I didn’t measure the beads out or the outlines of the letter. I just laid the pearls on the canvas and made a rough shape of an “h” and then proceeded to make the same outline with glue in sections while I stuck the pearls on. Look, it’s certainly not a work of perfection but I’m really pleased with the impact it created.
So, a little bit of creative outlet and I am feeling better, and it feels good to vent, so thank you for listening! Hopefully I get a bit better at managing when things don’t quite go my way. I’d love to hear what you do to decompress or how you deal with things when you feel you’re about to explode? Post a comment and share the wealth!!
Here’s to sunshine and rainbows again……..Happy Days!